Friday, January 25, 2013

Uncolorful Design

Ride amid dark waves
Surpassing the points of sanity
Climbing these perpendicular hills
Into the glare of the moon,
Vanishing in the vast
Beyond the air that chokes on empty
Releasing with it a ray of energy
That tries to win its optimism back

Many lie them, there, into the earth
A place from where darkness gave birth
And encloses thy with the black muck
Until light cannot be seen for many a width

Into uncolored vasts we fly
Forever from here we are chained to the sky
If ever I could sew a piece of me onto you
You'd forsake the memory
Of this shade that poured itself through you

Blood drips from a blood red eye
As from her insides
The pain drips from her frailty
Into a well where thousands of screams
Dwell in an everlasting void
Where no release is met
And where designs are what they are
When you have sought yourself
Beneath the world.

Written 08-05-2006

Sunday, January 13, 2013

Blood Love

Beyond realms of despair
The unloved scream for repair
The salt of tears
Fall onto wounds still fresh

Undo this sickness before my eyes
Eternal beauty leaps unto the skies
I reach, they run
For without me is to have more fun

I've become bitter
From bitterness
Into the well of darkness
I've come to be adjusted
In its likeness

An I bear the mark
And I am shunned by the eternal spark
I am one in all
And all in one
I have no counterpart
I'm too far removed
From what they want

Introvert and skeptical
The opposite of all things political
Anti religious
Anti human
Like the Sin of Onan
They are a waste of semen!

I exist within nowhere
I speak and say nothing
My love is to unlove
My care is to despair

What I feel; is to be denied
What I hate; is to be praised

Am I to be forever night,
Never to wake at dusk?
Am I bound to eternal darkness,
To lifelessly rust?

As eternity changes shape
More narrow its halls get
Scarred by the claws of the divine
The religious body should forever die!

Into an unblessed void:
There is no future
There is only today
There is some past
And I call it today

Leave me to be
As God I created my own country
My own world on behalf of my own
Law and order through chaos
You have never seen!

Close my eyes
But never sleep
I'm right there where I don't want to be
And until the day of death I linger...

Please don't wake me...
Please don't wake me...

Written 13-07-2006

Saturday, January 12, 2013

FLAGELLUM DEI

Feeling utter darkness becoming one
Jagged edges toward every abyss I've known
Down and always amidst gardens of grief
Eternal blackness is carved into my skin

And I lay waste the angel-soul
That once begot me
Amongst spheres of un-being
I march upright in the kingdom of shadows
Where chaos is etched in eternity
Only the strong and positive will walk the line
With the knowledge
That everything eventually fades to black.

Written 22-12-2006

Sunday, January 6, 2013

When Conquest is My Aim

...And behold I saw a light,
That was no light!
But a tripwire into
A pit of temptational sin
I leaped toward the gate
Dare? I would not crawl!
Through bloodshed of the past
I became a victim once more
Of something I should've seen
Of something I could withhold
But damn the tentacles
I embrace yet another fall

I, a wide open mind
As to you, wide open soul
But to be tied as a knot
We felt no harm to be done

Thy, to be crossing
My 'salt on wound' trail
Thy pusheth the salt deeper
A straight face...
I've felt this before

As the night became bolder
The lights were flickering in a pale darkness
That smelled of inferior collective conspiracy

A truly ghastly gesture
Our minds rotten
But content with where we stand

This was of one night
But how many more to follow?
All I yearned for
Nearly reached its peak
Let us silently speak
As I won't tread these shores
Unless conquest is my aim

Thou tempt me with mere seduction
As I speak, I won't lie
So it's working and I'm sure
To blast my way through this voyage

Written 18-02-2003

Wednesday, January 2, 2013

The First

It's easy to stray
In one's life, with multiple pains
A growth has waned
In similar mind-drain
Can't lie face-down
Stillborn hate fused
And your meekness can not shield
What's about to unfold

Hardend like you an I
A guard for one's own true bliss
Introvert, it's all you say
It's never enough for me anyway

In need of what has died
I do confront this nightmare outside
But keep to myself
Oppose to wander in disguise
Can't create if face-down
Stillborn hate fused
Your meekness can not shield
What's becoming entrapment

Still hold my will against you
Through worship mislead
This turmoil becomes poison
Don't enshrine the first as chosen

Reign above the tide!
Walking fields obscure and slowly
To understand why
Your facing the end so lonely
Can't create if face-down
Hate has fused
This meekness could not shield
Alas, to what has unfold

Darkend like you and I
Stand guard for pure and true bliss
Introvert, it's all been said
This loss won't keep and won't stay
In me...

Written 08-08-2002